Friday, November 11, 2011
At almost 40 years old I’ve been learning a big lesson: Say no to what doesn’t feel right (even if you can’t explain why yet) and fight for what does (even when it scares you to death.)It's freedom. And also trust. It’s living in a wide open field where anything can be built and new things, never before discovered, will be seen.
Choosing not to live that way? Makes you miserable. And everyone else around you frustrated, too. That kind of living quickly disintegrates into a messy confusion of manipulation, control and blame.
That is not freedom. And it fosters mistrust.
I’ve decided my forties are going to be about shamelessly saying no, so I can say yes. This decade is going to be about freedom.
This last four weeks I’ve practiced. I’ve said no to a body part, to facebook, to uncomfortable obligations, to expectations and to living off a script that wasn’t mine. Next month? Who can say?
When I talk to God about this I keep hearing Him whisper to me: I died for your freedom. Go enjoy it!