I haven't run a race since 2007. That was the year I did two halfs and both are stories in and of themselves that aren't all pretty. I wasn't too motivated to do more after those experiences for quite awhile.
But since then I have discovered trails, running for beauty, running buddies and running for the sake of pursuing enjoyment and not pushing-myself goals.
They say for every race you should have three goals, though. One for if it turns out to be a great day. One for if it's a good day and one for if the day bombs big-time. (For those days most runners pick: just finish the race.)
I'm running a race this Saturday. It's a beautiful course that for a part of it overlooks the San Juan Islands and the bay. It's a race I've watched and read about for years always feeling like there is no way I could ever run it. But a sweet running friend signed me up as a gift last week and I was giddy about it.
I am also nervous. I have all the cliche' fears of finishing last, bonking, going out too fast... and so I've been playing with numbers and goals and finish times and plans in my head and I have been totally too scared to just make enjoying the experience my entire goal.
Until I watched this (below.) And she reminded me why I run again. Yes... I have some competitiveness in me. But I am learning more and more about the freedom to run just for joy. And how that aligns everything in the right place anyways.
This is beautiful and inspiring to watch and if you think of it, hold me to my commitment for Saturday to just enjoy!